Should I call/msg to wish him Happy Birthday?Silence?

11 July makig me feels disturbed...Wanting n Looking forward in celebrating my x love birthday... But Failed to do it, i guess... Again.. I felt depressed wenever i tink about him...

Lately I was so afraid that my menses didnt hit on the date... I was happy wen it came tis morning.. I was so worried that something might had happen..Who knows.. Maybe after all, i dun need to worry anymore...Not anymore..

Well.. Im moving on now.... But still, i do miss him...

Remembered what he said to hurt me badly... .. "I fucking regret knowing u. I would have listen to kay to leave u long ago.."

Yayaya.. im unluncky...But at least i know god do loves me.. unlike some people..They tense to b angry n wondering the power fact in The Al-Mighty...hmmmz.... I dun wanna mentioned anyone here...

Hope his happy n peacful now...That wat i cn do to pray for him..All the best..Still running up in my mind,wthr i should message/call him later to wish him Hapi Birthday...

But....

Remember he mentioned.. "Dun ever let me see your fucking face here ever again"... But thats includ my voice too? Will he be angry if i call n Wish Him?Im confused.. Just a Wish, So tat i wont feels so bad in failing to celebrate his 26 Birthday...

Errr..How I wish That i Wiill say this to Him... Theres Nothing much that i can do or make u happy.. But jus a Wish from me to u.. Happy 26th Birthday Dear.May God give u the best present ever.. Thats is ur Happiness that u ever want..