After All...

After a log tym...Today is the day i get to meet him...:)......Nthing much to say coz i might b afraid tat things does wrong again..hopefully..nthing will happen...

Should I call/msg to wish him Happy Birthday?Silence?

11 July makig me feels disturbed...Wanting n Looking forward in celebrating my x love birthday... But Failed to do it, i guess... Again.. I felt depressed wenever i tink about him...

Lately I was so afraid that my menses didnt hit on the date... I was happy wen it came tis morning.. I was so worried that something might had happen..Who knows.. Maybe after all, i dun need to worry anymore...Not anymore..

Well.. Im moving on now.... But still, i do miss him...

Remembered what he said to hurt me badly... .. "I fucking regret knowing u. I would have listen to kay to leave u long ago.."

Yayaya.. im unluncky...But at least i know god do loves me.. unlike some people..They tense to b angry n wondering the power fact in The Al-Mighty...hmmmz.... I dun wanna mentioned anyone here...

Hope his happy n peacful now...That wat i cn do to pray for him..All the best..Still running up in my mind,wthr i should message/call him later to wish him Hapi Birthday...

But....

Remember he mentioned.. "Dun ever let me see your fucking face here ever again"... But thats includ my voice too? Will he be angry if i call n Wish Him?Im confused.. Just a Wish, So tat i wont feels so bad in failing to celebrate his 26 Birthday...

Errr..How I wish That i Wiill say this to Him... Theres Nothing much that i can do or make u happy.. But jus a Wish from me to u.. Happy 26th Birthday Dear.May God give u the best present ever.. Thats is ur Happiness that u ever want..

tHiNgS ThAt iVe DoNe 2 MoVe oN....

Things that Ive done to Move On:

Enjoying myself to the chalet..
- The only thing if he were to follow me as it planned, I would be very happy... Still Ive been enjoying myself alon..Yeah alone in a chalet..

Changed my mobile number..

and the most surprising part is...

Hr Department frm NEA called me to come for an interview..
@
West Coast Community Club..
Got to Alight at Clementi Mrt ad take bus 282 frm e Interchange...

[Was surprised to hear Clementi..Argghh!! Clementi Again!!]

Im looking forward in that Job... :)

Wheres my........

Where's my HSBC??

MJ

Watching e Live channel ons MJ Ceromony..

Again....Ending.....

Cried..

It happened again..Tis time it would be real... Im deeply wounded..From the day one, i know myself was unlucky.. I Dun need to wait for "the somebody"to say that.. As far as im concern, ALLAH do loves me.. I believed that.. Not like certain people.. wen they re angry, they would jus say things abt god.give up n everything.. I dun knw hw to interperate actuali..

Wanting him was deeply Painful.. Its Hurtssssss..

Supposedly we planned for e 3 days 2 Night Chalet..Haizz..Nthing much to say abt this.. But i can tell u something tt heat me up tt day was tat The prawn,sate,cuttlefish and chicken seaweed had flung to e dustbin.. Yeah never thinking abt giving it to my siblings to yummy..

Now hes gone.. He meant was his saying now i guess.. "Never Let me see ur fucking face ard anymore"........Yeah tats wat he said... So...Im free now..All by my own..With tears n my numb minds along with me...

Gone...Gone...Gone..

Extrodinary!!!

I cant expres how happy I am today... I love u Baby.. Nothing can change me for that..Thanks for e effort dear.. I Love u dear..Always Do!!!!

Knife By Rockwell

You touched my life
With a softness in the night
My wish was your command
Until you ran
Out of love
I tell myself I'm free
Got the chance of living just for me
No need to hurry home
Now that you're gone
CHORUS
Knife
Cuts like a knife
How will I ever heal
I'm so deeply wounded
Knife
Cuts like a knife
You cut away the heart of my life
When I pretend when I smile
To fool my dearest friends
I wonder if they know
It's just a show
I'm on a stage day or night
I go through my charades
But how can I disguise
What's in my eyes
(Repeat CHORUS)
Oh oh oh oh oh ...
I try and try locking up
The pain I feel inside
The pain of wanting you
Wanting you
(Repeat CHORUS)

Do u Remember This?

Sakura City Hall..Ben n Jerry.Sakura Buffet Orchard.. .Mac @ Orchard after e Notty Gurl..Cinemas.. Popeye..Rocky Master..Bugis..ICA..Hotels..Mee Pok.. Cycling..Arcade Timezone..Valentine..Prawn Fishing..Fishing n Crabbing.. Pitching Tent..Mustafa Center..Bird Park..Crocodile Farm..Sentosa..Botanic Garden..Marina Barrage..Esplanade..Sisha @ Nabins..Zam-Zam..East Coast..Changi Beach...Woodlands Mart..Arnolds..Lane 16 Prata..Outside Gap - Orchard..Mr Prata..Far East..Pacific Plaza(Fossil)..Center Point..

Syg?Mamun Singh?Love?Together Forever?Sorry?Promise?Touch?Hug n Kisses?Tears?Smell?Forehead Kiss?Hand Kiss?Smile?Laughter?Change?Mamin Singh?HSBC?Jingarokman?Mamun?ketuk dengan kuali?Fifi Busuk??Fifi Ngompol??Wallet in e River?Nak?Sliirrpp?Bluek?

GONE

He's Gone...Move On Fi...

After all.. Im Speechless..What I can say is.. Its Painful.Its Hurtful...The cut is getting Deeper.. Im lost..Can I Move on Now...

All the Best to u Fifi...Stop crying now..Enuf for Today..Ur parents needs u..Be near to god Fifi.. U will get better..trust me...

As for now.. trying asking around Cik Suryati, whos was my x coursemates in CSP, abt e "Mengaji n Fardu Ain"... Mayb tat will get me better..Hopefully.... Seriously Im lost...

The one who used to give me some guidance no longer here in my life... Gone far apart. I got dump.. I cant believe it.. yeah..mayb u deserve it Fifi...Gone to waste..Waste...

Let it Go Fi... If u really love him, you should let him Go... Let him be happy...

Arghhh..Anthr xplanation need to be made...What can i say if my Families were to as?...Arrgghhh...Y u so cruel dear.... I hate things when come to this...

Changing number?? Necessary??

Problematic!! Jubilation Betol La..

Haizzz.. Encountering problem with my M1 Sim card... Arrrgghhh!!!! Cannot Call n Sms Out...All e topup gone to waste!!!Not even after i tried to put tat Sims in my sister hp....

Arrghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gone Prawn Fishing Later....... Hope i Find Peace There...
Bishan Park here i Come..

Lari,lari,lari..

1. Kau Seorang yang Penyayang
2. Sabar menunjukkan aku ke pangkar jalan yg benar.
3. kau yg seLalu Jujur...

"Baik aku pergi..tinggalkan dirimu...sejauh mungkin untuk Melupakan"..

kerana Sebab Pertama dan Kedua tidak aku rasai..Hilang dan pergi... haruskan aku tunggu dan sabar hanya untuk sebab yg ketiga? Cinta? Cinta yg menyakitkan..Atau aku harus terus sabar..

Biar saja tuhan yg tentukan..Aku hanya harap kau sedari dan jangan selalu Menyalahkan Aku...Kini semuanya berlalu pergi meninggalkan diri ku... Semoga tuhan beri aku kekuatan untuk tempuhi rintagan ini...

Ending of Love...

Cna yuo raed tihs?

Cna yuo raed tihs?
Olny 55% of plepoe can.

I cdnuolt blveiee
taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg.
The phaonmneal pweor
of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig
to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,
it dseno’t mtaetr in waht
oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are,
the olny iproamtnt
tihng is taht the frsit
and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae.
The rset can be a taotl
mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm.
Tihs is bcuseae the
huamn mnid deos not raed
ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh?
yaeh and I awlyas
tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!
fi yuo cna raed tihs,
palce yuor cenmomt hree.

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Letting Go of my iPhone?

Im confuse in making decision now.. Just got it restore the other day and it got back to Normal.. Normal as in - Not much Application n Games.. Im sick n tired of this..N Well... Cydia is the one im looking for.. Argghh... But still got to JailBreak tat Software, i guess..

Yeah..mayb soon.. Got to let go of the phone.. No longer useful to me either..